Re: "two Popes"
"I don't know for certain but I think God is very improbable, and I live my life on the assumption that he is not there."').
I think you'll be doing much better than many who claim "christian" beliefs - and seem to live either as if they believe God's not there or as if they believe He doesn't care :(
(Sad to admit but I know many athiests who'd make much better Christians than many christians I know! (including myself way too often)